My shelf

I am more excited for our baby to come than ever!

But.... I am kinda gonna miss my shelf.
Yup, that's my Starbuck's coffee resting on my tum tum.
Gotta love the shelf.
i.e. my table, my arm rest, my reason for having the really nice people at FedEx carry in all my boxes.

It really worked perfectly last night, because it is rather inconvenient to reach to the table for my drink every time I was ready for a sip.

Hooray for the bump

32 weeks!

Geeezz Louise!!!! 32 weeks... wow, he is going to be here before we know it.

Although when I put it in these words "I still have 8 weeks to go" - it seems like an eternity. But the timing will be just as God planned for us.

And yes, I'm lovin' my outfit! It is the warmest and most comfy - gotta do what ya gotta do to stay warm! ;o)
I love those Anderson sweat pants (thank you sis!) and those "boot slippers"! (thank you to my other sis!)

got hormones?

I used to like the "got milk?" adds because I am a fan of milk! yummy yum, I think I can thank my dad for my calcium cravings because he too is a milk lover.

but in this post we are not talking about milk.... we are talking hormones.

got hormones?

I know... a total lame play on the milk marketing campaign.

but to answer to question: YES! i do, and I had a bad run in with them today.

I was totally fine this morning - happy, joyful, ate my yummy breakfast, kissed my hubby, smiled when he told me "you look cute" (gotta love it). But then during church, something strange happened to my emotions. I started getting a little uncomfortable (like usual) because the seats are made kinda funny and for some reason I get really light headed and funky feeling right around 10:30. Well, after that faded I was just stuck in this funk. It lifted a bit while we were socializing at the end and BAM hit my like an 18 wheeler once we made it home. I didn't wanna make lunch, I felt like I was dragging. I suddenly had no balance at one point while I was making a sanwhich. I wanted to lay down, but felt restless at the same time. I started to get teary eyed because Jonathan was all of 5 feet way from me at the computer as I lay pathetically restless on the couch.

I call him over, I start to tear up... because I just wanna do something, and do something with him.
-I thank God for such an understanding husband, because I know I was pretty pathetic sounding.
He helped me try and sort through whether or not I truly needed a nap or could do something. We decided that I would work on some Christmas gifts and then we would move on to making some progress with our baby's room and his stuff.

The whole time I was just acting sooo, well, "blah" for lack of better terms. I felt so strange. Not like myself and on the verge of annoyed/sad/tired. Which = not good and unnecessary
I dragged about. Got overwhelmed a few times here and there when deciding to move the guest bed, and buy some furniture.. yadda yadda yaaaaa....

Then I waddled down stairs and UNenthusiastically went about trying to decide on what to make fore dinner.

Ravioli it is.

And it was good.

Then I wanted some Starbucks.

I, in a semi - but not at all - joking way asked if Jonathan could get me some.

He said yes.

WoW.

He would bring it back after he got done working on the crib with Kevin.

I, in a semi - but not at all - joking way looked at the clock and informed him that it was 7 o'clock and that he told Kevin he would be there at 7:30 and that he could go now and bring it back.

Jonathan laugh and smiled at me, as I changed my mind 23 times about whether or not I needed it in the first place. And whether or not I felt bad for asking him to go get it for me....

I start to cry.

Why?

I do not know.

I believe Jonathan's sweet willingness to go across the way and get Starbucks for me was so kind that it pushed me off of my emotion cliff.

"cry You are so sweet to me hub sob sob I am gonna miss you tear cry tear I just wanna hang out with you.... sob When you get back can we watch a show together, and you can rub my leg? sniffle"

He said yes.... can you believe it?

"tear sniffle sniffle okay. You don't have to get me Starbucks anymore. sniff"

He said he was going to and he would be back in a few minutes.

I start crying again, and hugged him like he was leaving for the Middle East. I teared up as he walked out the door and bawled a little more as I cleaned up after dinner..... and before I knew it he was back with a delicious Caramel Burlee Latte for me.

And here I type, sipping on my treat that I truly do not deserve, and feel awkwardly better since releasing all my strange emotions through tears and hugs.

All I have to say is "that was a weird experience," and "I am so thankful for a husband who does not give me weird looks, but just hugs me because he knows I need it."

I see God a lot in the way that Jonathan treats me, Starbucks or not, he treats me so well - and the best in ways that don't cost a dime. He sure is a wonderful gift to me.

Hi Hubster!

30 week photo @ 31

Hello, I am officially 31 weeks today (yay!) but I am just now posting my 30 week pictorial - which is probably more accurately my 30.5 week picture.. oh dear

Alas:

My mom said that all she got was a nice little basketball when she was pregnant with me. And I guess you can say the same thing happened to me... but on both sides, front and back! yikes, the rump will not be left out!
The rump reminds me of this daily.
I am not to much of a fan concerning the cough largeness cough of my legs....
Lets just blame it on the camera this time.... you know they say it adds 10lds!
Or we could blame in on the maternity pants- which I am somewhat thankful for their efforts in aspiring cuteness... I have see some bad pairs out there.
Or we could blame it on the pure fact that I keep talking about it - yes... that it most likely the most unhelpful thing I have done this entire post.

ahem....

udder covers

hehe! I just got it! "Udder Covers"

HA!

Anyways... they are nursing covers. My friend told me about them and the promo they were having and I got one for FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YIPPEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Ok, enough. But yeah, I only had to pay shipping!
Yum.. yes please!
So it is on the way.
It is one of the rimmed nursing covers that hold the top open so you can peek down at baby and make sure all is going well. What a great idea - and FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Check them out at the website.
this is the one I ordered:

Prayer requests and the weight of our decison

I have prayer requests... meaning, if you think of it- PLEASE PRAY FOR THESE THINGS :o)

• labor - I am excited and equally as nervous about it. I'm not sure what to expect and would love the Lords relaxing touch as I endure. As well as reflect on the representation of how weighty my sin is and its reason for the pain of childbirth. Then in turn God amazing saving and sustaining grace!
• That the Lord would comfort, protect, and sustain me during labor and give Jonathan wisdom on how to help, comfort and encourage me through it.
  
• That our baby would be kept healthy during the remaining pregnancy and safe during labor/delivery.. I am sure it is pretty intense being squeezed through such a small space, welcome to the world little fella!
  
• That God would set His love on our little one and save him
• That our little boy would grow to be a man of the word!
  
• That as parents, God would give us the grace to bring him up in the ways of the Lord - and learn from examples set around us.
  
• As parents, we would be sensitive to God's will for our little boy's life and parent him according to it.

These are the desires of Jonathan's heart and mine. Aside from the excitement of having a baby, and him being so cute and little and lovable: there is huge purpose and meaning behind bringing a child into this world.
Our dear friend Gary put it in perfect terms when he said: "There are few things we can do in this life to impact eternity. One, would be to lead someone to Christ - and two, would be to bring a life into this world."

That is the weight of it!

Not to scare people out of having children - but to encourage! Let that encourage you, to have an impact on eternity by raising up sons and daughters to see the beauty of a Sovereign Holy God who's grace is sufficient. What an impact and beautiful evangelism.

Hello Belly - 28 weeks

Wow, I cannot believe how the weeks are flying by! I am now at 28 weeks, thats the 3rd and final trimester!

HELLO BELLY! (good bye waist)

I am not gonna lie, I have my "whale days" - which means the days that I feel larger than life - in a literal way. But I have to remember: pounds with a purpose! Weight gain is normal.... just, this much weight gain has always been thought as bad bad bad... and now that I am pregnant, this much weight gain is normal normal normal.

I think that I may have forgotten to put up my 26 week pictorial, so here's that too. I feel like I see a good 2 inch difference... or is it just me? COOL STUFF I tell ya! Our baby boy is growin' like a champ...

Did I mention I can't wait for him to arrive??
LOVE HIM!

26 weeks!

So, here we are.... our little boy and me! 26 weeks

He is definitely growin' huh??!!!

makin' room!

Move out of the way ribs! Abs.... you are too tight! Stomach, you are only aloud 'this much' food at each meal. And bladder... quit your complaining.

Phew! this week my body has taken a beating! I actually thought I was going to stuffer in pain for these last 14 weeks.

On Saturday I got a really bad stomach ache and my back started to ache like, whoa! I was a little nervous that I had caught the flu from one of the slimmy noses at work (I have been using lysol and purell like MAD).
Turns out, I think the stomach ache was due to the home made root beer and chili dogs we had friday night ;o)
And the back ache was just the beginning of rearranging of my insides.

I couldn't sleep that night, I felt so bad. I thought my back was breaking. I never actually fell asleep that night and didn't stop tossing and turning. I hurt in every sleeping position and every once in a while a terrible pain would surge through my tummy. Ouch, I think I shed a tear that night.

Sunday is when the rib pain started. By this point I knew I wasn't sick and concluded that it was definitely our little man in their growing growing GROWING! He is half way up my ribs - and they aren't wide enough for him anymore! OUCH! So that is where the aching was coming from. It only felt ok when I was laying on the couch. If I would try to sit at the computer, I would lose my breath. I was very uncomfortable.

It was that night that I got the "stabbing in the abs with a knife" pain. I actually was really scared and thought that something very wrong was happening. It truly felt like a knife, but I knew it wasn't happening in the womb. It felt like my ab muscles were being torn apart. Well, turns out that is exactly what was happening. Sheesh, something called round ligament tearing or something. I dunno if it was actually my abs, but it sure felt like it.

I'm glad that is over! I am just glad to say that the back ache and discomfort were not here to stay for the last 14weeks..... but I am sure there more bound for the future. This little guy still has some growing to do.

It is really amazing at how much he has grown already though. So much that when he moves I watch my stomach move around. I think it has to do with the fact that I have a short torso, so if he moves - where is he gonna go??
It is the coolest thing. Jonathan and I have been watching him roll around in there for a couple weeks and it just keeps getting more and more pronounced and frequent! Last week I was laying in bed reading my book before bed. I usually rest my book on my belly, when all of a sudden my book bounced! ha! So funny. "Hey ***! I know you are there, Momma loves you buddy" (no that is not a cuss word, that is supposed to stand for his name! which we are gonna keep a secret!!)

Basically, my belly looks like a water bed that with a dolphin inside of it. You can definitely see it the best when I lay down on my back, which I am glad for because otherwise at any given moment a passerby could glance at my tummy and see his little fist for head bulging! Some may say that's "freaky" - I say that's the "coolest thing ever!!!"

That's my little boy in there! I am wondering what we are in for, because I have been feeling him move around in there since we was 14weeks! and he still has 14 more to go before he comes into the world.

Careful buddy, don't punch momma to hard and careful on the ribs ;o)

23.5 weeks and 24 weeks... did I pop again?

WHOA MAMA! literally...!
Boy, I feel like these 2 pictures looks so different - but they are only 5 days apart!! whoa!

23.5 weeks..
and 24 weeks...
Maybe its just me....

Boy, do I sure love that little guy in there. I can't wait to meet him in just a little over 3 months!
PROUD MAMA!

I know I am pregnant when.... part II

I know I am pregnant when I go to type in "Campbell" and I put "Campbelly"

What a strange phenomenon

You know you are pregnant when...

I know I am pregnant when every time I go to type in "Bekky" I type in "Belly"

Opps.

Prego brain, apparently

A GREAT day.... sigh

[caution, this is a very long post]
Wednesday was probably one of those days that rank WAY up there on my list of memorable life moments. It was the day we saw our little baby's face for the first time :o) Truly the day panned out better than I could have imagined.

When I woke up that morning, I was hoping that there would not be another unfortunate phone call saying they were moving our appointment again... at 9:52 my cell phone rang - I WAS SCARED to look! But thankfully it was just Jonathan calling to say that he was on his way (silent cheer).

At 10am we were off to Oakbrook Terrace, about a 30 minute drive. We left early because we wanted to get there early... and EARLY we were! I thought the appointment was at 11am but turns out it was actually at 11:15... so we were 45minutes early - Hey, what can I say? We were excited ;o)

In the waiting room Jonathan read me a Veggie Tales book, in a wonderfully animated way. (he was practicing!) But nothing was going to get my mind off the fact that I wanted to puke up all the water that I had chugged and that sitting up straight in the chair was only making matters worst for my BLOATED BEYOND BELIEF bladder. [in case you are unaware, they had me drinking at least 32oz of water - no later than 45 minutes before my appointment with no potty breaks...I think I had more than 32oz, sigh]

And then the skies opened and our names were called!! Our ultrasound lady (yes, very technical term) was great! I was a little nervous going into the appointment, thinking that they were gonna think we were weirdos for wanting to find out the gender in such a specific way as ours (you can read about how we planned it here)
Instead she thought it was such a fun idea!

So I laid back and she put the cold jelly on my belly (that rhymed) and as soon as she put the remote thingy on my stomach she exclaimed, "OH! I already know what it is." Apparently, there were no problems concerning the show of 'parts.' She had us turn our heads while she printed that one off....

The actual ultrasound was just miraculous, it felt like time stood still. We got to see the precious, adorable little face:
My heart!! it is just totally overwhelmed.
According to the lady our little one has Daddy's feet :o)And during the ultrasound, that little babe kept doing a fist pump. Actually it would start with him playing with his ear and then take a swing with that little fist.... I wonder if he will box? He sure feels like a boxer in there...
you see his little arm and fist? his fist is up by his face.... he is gearing up for another swing!
And here is the spine, that boy's gotta nice strong back.
I could look at that spine all day long.... I love him.

Once the ultrasound was all done, our awesome ultrasound lady had us go wait in the front room, while she prepared our "gift" sealing up either the BLUE or PINK envelop and hiding it away in our gift box.....

The time was nearing, when we would get the news of the century, what our first born baby was going to be!!

The car ride was filled with suspense and wonder.... ;o)"What could it be....?"
...and "I wonder... if I wrinkle my face a little bit more - will I be able to figure it out?"
And there it sat, on the table at Qdoba - not exactly "quaint", like I had planned in my head, but completely perfect (especially given the fact that my hubby and I were famished! And it is one of my favorite places to eat!!)

Jonathan: "Oh my goodness... what the heck is in that box?? I better hurry up and eat my nachos!"
hehe, just kidding... he doesn't talk like that. And I told him to pose... so really, it was me thinking that silently in my head, probably making the same face as him, while taking the picture, and then DIVING into my veggie nachos. Because the sooner I finished, the sooner we could OPEN THE BOX!

Jonathan had the honors, I wanted him too, plus he finished his nachos first... he always does...I am LOVIN' his face in these pictures.... ha, I LOVE YOU Hub!It's soooo close.... sooooo close!!
WHAAAAA LLLLLAAAAA!

IT'S BLUE!!!!!
IT'S A BOY!

"Oh my goodness, a precious little boy, oh my goodness, oh my goodness, oh my goodness"
"YEAH! Alright! A BOY!... Where is my ball and glove??? Football? "It was wonderful! We sighed and smiled, hugged and laughed! What a great memory. Our ultrasound tech left us a little note with our baby boy's picture...

How sweet!

Our little family... with one still in the womb.And a beautiful reminder....

.... of our new little life.

It's a BOY!!!!

We are having a BOY!! :o) And believe you me, I can't WAIT to post the ultrasound pictures! We got such a great shot of his handsome little face - that boy is gonna be a looker ;o)

As another blogger stated so perfectly, " I almost feel guilty for how much love I am experiencing for another man!"

I guess it is ok when the other man is your son. And all though I am sure it will be a kinda of love that I haven't experienced before, it will never out weigh the love for my hubby! He is my number one here on earth ( ;o) there is a wink for you Hubsters)

I think that I will wait and tell you all the details of the ultrasound appointment, and the opening of our gift, etc. for when I can post the pictures a long with it! I promise, it will be more fun that way.

I just had to write a little something about the little man in our life! Gee are we lucky to have ultrasound equipment this day and age - I feel so blessed to have had a glimpse into the womb and watch our little boy do a fist pump (that's right! he totally did a fist pump!)

Pictorials to come..... YAY for babies

20 weeks post .. a week late...

Well, I am late on post the belly shot..... again.
This is me at 20 weeks.. even though I am 21 weeks now.

Slow and steady, just slow and steady growth!

late picture

I know this has is like WAY late... but I thought, better late than never. This is my 18 weeks picture.
Yes, yes... it's true. I am 20 weeks now, this post is 2 weeks over due - but what can I say? Time flies!

Wednesday, is the day we have our ultrasound- so stay tuned for the biggest update so far :o)

Baby Boy......... or............ Baby Girl

YAY

boiler up, baby!

Guess what we found in the mail this past Wednesday!?!?! A so thoughtful and sweet package from my great friend Katie! I was completely blindsided, in a good way. I wasn't expecting a package - how fun :o)

Look at what was inside:ahem... I am now realizing that you probably can't tell what is on there. It is a Purdue Boilermakers onesie!

hehe, its so little. Basically, our baby is going to be a Purdue fan at 3 months old. Duhhhh, because mommy, daddy, and g'pa all went there..... it runs in the family!

Boiler up!

baby wise

I just realized that in my post last night I included baby wise in the title... why, might you ask- because I was planning on mentioning it!

Opps, I guess I figured my post was getting so long already that I would break it up instead.
Maybe my post on baby wise is premature, I am only through 1/4 of the book, but I guess it has been so helpful already that I feel its time to talk, talk, talk about it.

On Becoming Baby Wise: Giving Your Infant the Gift of Nighttime Sleep
by: Gary Ezzo and Robert Bucknam

I am so thankful for all that I am learning already! I really think that I would have been lost with out this helpful resource.... and extremely fatigued and exhausted by the sounds of it.
There were multiple families that strongly encouraged that we read this book, one family of 9 kids shared their experience. They did demand feeding with their first 3 kids, and then read this book - practicing the baby wise method of feeding and said that their next 6 kids were all sleeping through the night my 9-10 weeks old! wow, I here some pretty intense stories of being awake all night with baby for YEARS! No sirreee bob! not me... God willing.

Hallelujah!! Bring on the baby wise method! :o)

You know, I guess this book has helped so many people, because the other day at work a man came in looking to leave some information on advertising with us for our owners. Through some small talk (because that is what salesmen do...) he found out that I was pregnant. Immediately... i am talking, IMMEDIATELY he grabbed a paper and proceeded to tell me that I "GOTTA READ THIS BOOK - SAVED MY WIFE'S LIFE"

I guess with their first child, the daughter would crying from 10pm to 6 am - mom had no sleep and by month 5, she was going crazy. No sleep what so ever. But it was a totally different story with their son this time around, he said that Baby Wise had there baby sleeping through the night at 2 months old too!

Well, that is proof enough for me, I really trust the families at my church that have earnestly suggested that I read it. They have beautiful and wonder kids - and after 9, I am SURE they know what they are talking about :o)

If you are expecting, or will be again in the future - check it out, it has been really good and informative read so far!

Babies beat and Baby Wise!

Awwww..... my favorite sound..

Thump thump.. thump thump..thump thump..

It's our babies heart beat [heavenly sound]

I got to hear it again at my appointment yesterday! I was hoping for something like that, just as a way to sort connect again with baby - even though I am literally, physically connected to the babe - I just wanted to hear. Especially since there isn't constant movement yet, there is just something wonderful about tangibly experiencing the life inside you!

PS: I have started to feel our little one move! It has only been a few sporadic times, but apparently from what I have read, that is how it starts and as they grow and get stronger- you feel it more and more..... I love it when it happens - my heart skips a beat :o)

As everyday goes by, I get more and more emotional (in a good way) about baby. I mean, verge of tears when I tell friends I have a bump, verge of tears! I am going to be a wet face wreck when they take their first steps, say their first words, their first day of school, their last day of school, when they get married, and then it will start all over again when they have kids!

Phew... deep breath. I gotta slow down, the baby is not even born yet. One day at a time Misha, one day at a time.... Thank goodness I have a husband with a stable head on his shoulders, that will remind me of that.

Chinese Gender Calendar

Ha, I get a huge kick out of all these funky ways to "predict" the gender of our babe!

Seriously, from the number of heart beats, to how fast your hair grows, dreams you have, the way you carry, to the types of foods you are craving... common now - that can't really be accurate!?!

The most unique of all, I would have to say, has been the Chinese Gender Calendar!

Check it out! ..... and then all you mommas out there, let me know if it was right in your case!!




According to this.... We are having a boy - time will tell..... !

I don't actually rely this, because in all reality, it's a 50/50 chance!

Still fun though ;o)